Hurricane Sandy hit us Monday night. I have to say it was one of the scariest nights of my life. Wind wiping… trees falling all around us…power out for 24 hours. The dogs were a pack of scaredy cats and I was no better. In fact I just lost it at one point and said some pretty harsh things to God which I had to ask him to forgive me for when I came back to my right mind. “I told him “I thought you’re my husband now? Well Richard did a better job than this!” I know what a horrible thing to say to such a good God. I feel like a heel. L Then the power came back on and I started seeing what happened in NY and NJ and all up and down the east coast and I really felt like a heel. I just sat in front of my tv and cried. Cried for the people who lost everything...cried at the unbelievable destruction. Cried because I miss my Richard so bad and I hate life without him! We really never know what’s in us till we go through the test :/
I failed so miserably.
My heart and prayers go out to all who were affected so profoundly by this storm.
A few weeks before Richard went home to the Lord I went to Ocean Grove NJ. The next two pictures I took when I was there... take note of the pier and fishing shack off in the distance. 
Again, one of my photos...
...and after Sandy
Sigh...
Sorry todays blog is so gloomy.
I know in my head I will be happy again someday.
But right now my heart just don't feel it.
I just feel very sad :(
STOP FEELING SO BAD YOU ARE ONLY HUMAN. I FEEL THE SAME WAY SOMEDAYS. GOD CAN TAKE THE CUSSING OUT HE HAS HEARD WORSE.
ReplyDeleteWHEN WE CAME HOME YRSTERDAY AFTER KILLING TIME @ WALMART, I SAW THE LIGHTS ON AND FELT FOR ALL THOSE POOR PEOPLE.
GOD JUST BLESSED US ON THE TOP OF VALLEY RD.
WE HAD LuCK AND BLESSINGS.
TAKE CARE OF THAT LITTLE PUPPY OF ELS SHE WILL BE KIDNAPPED, I HAVE A BIG HOUSE AND LOTS OF PLACES TO HIDE A LITTLE THING LIKE THAT
LOVE JO
Jo you will have to take my arms with her ... Because she's never out of them. Lol
DeleteI agree with Jo. You're way too hard on yourself. HE never gives us more than we can handle! I know that deep in your heart, you too believe that. Reach deep down and you'll see just how strong you REALLY are! You can do it girlfriend because we have faith in you and faith that God is watching over you.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Kim
Hugs my friend!
DeleteOh yea, one more thing.... Jo will have to share Little Ricky with me when she kidnaps him. We'll just have to take turns.... :)
ReplyDeleteWell I'm glad she is so little and I can hide her safe in my pocket from all my dognapping friends! LOL
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