Monday, February 25, 2013

There, for the Grace of God, Go I

Six months ago Richard was promoted to heaven. However I have to say to be truthful I felt like I was sent to hell. But for God… whose love is deeper then the deepest pit of despair I don’t feel that way any longer. I have truly felt the Lord carry me through such moments of sorrow. I felt Him tenderly hold me when the darkness became so dark it would take my breath away. 
I believe the hardest adjustment for me theses 6 months (besides just missing Richard with every ounce of my being) has been the feeling like I had been plopped into someone else's world. My life just felt so foreign… like it didn’t fit me. 
But as I have come to except this is my life and find the “me” again in this strange world. I feel the world coming back under my feet. Because it sure felt ripped right out from under me.
And it doesn't feel so foreign any longer. It feels different, but I feel hopeful.
Again as I keep my eyes fixed on the promises of God that say life for His children gets brighter and brighter I find the sorrow lifting.
 The way of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, which shines ever brighter until the full light of day. Proverbs 4:18 
A lot of it has been in the little things that are starting to add up into a feeling of wholeness again. Like having days I don’t cry. I thought the first time that would occurred I would remember it forever.  But I didn’t even notice when that first day happened. I just know now I have them. 
But I know more than anything else it truly is the grace of God that is bringing me through. Yes… There, for the Grace of God, Go I. 
So happy 6 months in heaven my dear beloved Richard. By the time you turn around I'll be there. 
And yes I am hanging on my everything.


  1. With God's strength you get stronger every day. "I raise my eyes toward the mountains. Where will my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth." Ps. 121:1-2

    On Thursday evening we had a beautiful snow. On Friday and Saturday the sun shown brightly and created diamond snow. I thought of you and said a prayer for you :)

    1. I love that verse...It is on a picture that hangs in our church hallway :)
      So glad you got to see diamond snow! And thank you my dear sister in the Lord for your prayer....means more then I can say! :)

  2. Hi sweet friend and blog sister,

    Just wanted you to know I'm here and am thinking of you.